the place is unreachable.

我是社会新鲜人

2011-08-11T12:01:00.006+08:00

每一个角落不同的环境不同的人事物
每一分每一秒不停地在学习着
看着他们的步伐不停的在移动着
我也不停的在观察着大家的目标视乎都一样
都是为了生活

在这半年里我把所谓的“大学生”完全的抛在脑后
投入了工作人繁忙的生活每天重复着一样的生活

所接触到的事物不再是吊儿郎当的面对
而是一种被托付的责任

做工不单单学习技术上知识同时思维方式和态度也要跟着改变
你用怎样的态度看待一件事情你看到的成果和你的态度就会是相等的
同样的道理你付出多少你就得到多少

依稀记得刚进来做工时我跟着大班去吃东西
听到了一句话令我印象非常深刻：
“我一定要纠正你们这一批新人的想法，不要想着出来做工是为了学东西。我做工做了十多年，现在还在学新的东西啊。只是看你们想不想学而已。做工是帮你的老板解决问题。如果有学到新的东西，你们的身上就多一把剑，以后对自己有帮助。”

不过社会新鲜人的生活就要结束了，回到大学生涯的最后一个学期！:x

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2011-08-05T11:13:00.005+08:00

久违了做工也有一段日子了
只能说读书有读书的好做工有做工的好
生活不够充实吗？
还是工作没有想象中的好？

最近的有很多的思绪
为什么现在的生活好像
没有一点踏实感
这跟我想象中的有点差别
所谓的成就感就是我想看到一些辉煌的成绩不是学业上的成绩而是你做某些事情令你感到很欣慰
为什么别人可以做到那么的突出不是你不能而是你要不要去做
我想要不一样的生活

偶然的听到一句蛮有意思的话
“Younger should work more and harder”
对，年轻人就是要这样做多学多
把握当下的每一个机会狠狠的拼成就一番事业

干还是不干？

random update

2011-02-25T11:55:00.002+08:00

cny was passed in a blink .
what a bored cny for year of 2011 for me , i have deal with sleeping , eating but without playing .
forget about cny things den .lol
now i am in FINAL YEAR OF MY DEGREE STUDY !!
soon , i will be going to internship . Is working better than studying ? no idea.
I am just pretty excited about my industry training since i never join any of the IT company .
what i learnt in college, will it be applicable in my work as well ? lol
there is so many people who tell me the answer is NO !
ha , i got no idea again .

im just no idea for my future . for the recent stage, im still like a sheep which is finding the way to go back home . lost direction again . haiz .

this semester is freaking free ! same thing that it shows my laziness since you nothing to do .

i hope that everything is going smooth . god bless !

And you and me go smooth as well <3

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2011-02-06T12:55:00.003+08:00

I just tried to hold it as good as possible
I got to choose
I know that future is an unpredictable boom
I have no idea to control it
What is the way that only can solve the problem perfectly
I am looking for the same direction as you expected to be and i wanted too
The journey is just started to script and yet the end is still unknown
I want to hold your hand together and write the every little moment with you
Or it is just too far for us ?

I love you.

War with peace . Live with cheer. Laugh with joy

2011-01-22T03:13:00.003+08:00

there are just some thoughts come across my mind .
life , not necessary to be tough enough only considered it as LIFE .
how do you define it actually ?
or your mind only full with money symbol ?
there is normal for everyone .
money , i know there is important and everyone is fighting for it.
undeniable , there is truth .
money means everything .
i just wanted to know whether money consists of status ? power ? authority ?

but lastly , everyone is just chasing for comfortable life.
i just want to have...

Quote for my future..

"War with peace . Live with cheer. Laugh with joy"

=)

2011

2011-01-03T00:22:00.001+08:00

不一样的2011

加油！

逃避

2010-12-27T15:14:00.002+08:00

thing seems like nothing , but there is unpredictable
anytime gonna to be exploded ? I do not know it.

sometime i am so weak in dealing with the problem.
there are thousands hundreds of solutions waiting for you , but the thing is how to choose the best solution ?

there is too many considerations , nothing to be perfect .

teach me k ? lead me a road .

3.20 pm - monday - 27/12/2010
bless.

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2010-12-26T17:21:00.003+08:00

sooner and later , 2010 is going to the end and 2011 is almost coming .
what you have done in 2010 ? is that any meaningful to you ? or just always keep the word of "let it be" ?

ya. for me , there is just process . no matter you want to be or not ,you have no power to control it .

going to step into a new page . what is the new thing going to be discover ?
unknown situation yet . the journey is longer and longer since I have grown up.

everyday is musing . future , current , past . everything is out of my control .
day by day , I have inside a maze . I am finding the way out from the current situation.

sometimes , a person , object , sign , sentence or word can be a direction for me as long as it makes sense ?

I just started to search in anywhere and anytime , wanted to meet the right person at the right time and importantly at the right timing .

there is a topic always around me . but the topic is a good choice ? I do not know about this and i have totally no idea at all . you know it well . Hope to maintain at a balance point , and makes sure the water will not be poured out from this line .

happy new year world . bless me .

Aza Aza :/

2010-12-01T18:06:00.002+08:00

XOXO :((((

mali mali homs !!!
everything that i wished please appear in front of me !

aikssss.

ada mulut tapi susah cakap .

macam biasa la. JOM JOM

go go power rangers !!

it's about time to kill monstersssssssssss !!

:(((

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2010-10-21T17:00:00.002+08:00

学会沉住气那就是态度。

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2010-10-12T16:57:00.000+08:00

看着一旁撒娇的你我缺少的是 - 身份。

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2010-10-10T03:51:00.003+08:00

well , 10 papers for advanced diploma cum BS degree. It seems like not a smooth journey as I expected .
How do you think If you have to face both of the papers in a day ?
generally speaking , it was killing me ! Double kill in a day !

I was not doing so well in last semester and I was having nightmare always .
All the things in my dream were all about my result . Stress ? I don't know .
Whatever , I have to face reality .

I am a human being which as normal as you all as well . What I have done , for sure you could make it also . Please don't say some hurt words to me . you will never ever know what kind of mood i had.

I was telling all the truths . Please stand in my view point and think about me . I appreciate if you do so.

If you know me well , you should know .
how many time i was broken down .
I was tired.
I wish to put all the things aside.
I wish to give up.
I have to pretend all the things were fine.
I have to go on the journey.
I have to conquer you.

At last , I was just alone .

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2010-09-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

想回到过去试著抱你在怀里我会紧紧的抱着你不再放开你你的每一分每一秒都是属于我的。

加油

2010-09-01T17:19:00.001+08:00

年轻的我们虽然有很多事没能力去实现但是你必须尽量去实现活到人生的最高点 !

Love

2010-08-27T19:22:00.002+08:00

I don't know how big of the world
I don't know how far I can walk
I don't know how long the journey is

but I only know how much I love you. <3

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2010-08-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

失败是成功的必经之路人生不会那么平坦如果平坦，那就不叫人生。

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2010-08-02T19:06:00.002+08:00

人的想法都是自私的
这是千古不变的道理

我为人人人人为我？
狗屁

PROVE ME !

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2010-07-27T00:12:00.001+08:00

当你攀升人生的巅峰时切记
人，是没有永远的第一
当你跌倒时切记
人，是没有永远的最后一名

New Start , New Life

2010-07-21T22:14:00.004+08:00

well well well , i abandoned my blog for quite some times already.

so now i gonna do some updates for you all .

firstly, i want to shout out loudly ! I am an officially diploma holder now ! <3

my mother and brother came to attend my ceremony but but but it was too bored for me !

totally out of my expectation. i thought it will be very interesting but i was the 6th person to the stage to get the "cylinder" from Dato Sri Ong Ka Chuan then sit there until my butt burned !

After ended of the ceremony, it was the photo session . there was the highlight of the convocation .It was a memorable day for all of the graduand. We all keep taking pictures until our shirt become wet and even sun burnt ! haha . okay , it also doesn't matter .Just a diploma only , we all look like fucking high for the convocation . haha. =P

At the moment , i was also pursuing my degree program now. All the things was squeezed up together and make me faint for all the time .==

Seriously, I still cannot adapt this kind of life style . it gonna make me crazy soon . argh !!!!!

Give up is not the way to solve the problem , i wan to conquer you ! lets seee......

I admitted that i was not did well in any of the things.

i regretted.

i disappointed.

I cannot be the one I expected to be for all the time.

I am so sorry .

相处

2010-05-09T16:16:00.002+08:00

相处这玩儿在书本上是学不到的

没有实战经验你是学不到的

说实在的我觉得这种方式我的确很不适合

不是你死就是我亡适者生存

我不是选择逃避而是不想令场面太过难堪

有些人仗着自己是老臣好像没政府似的无法无天

不过人在做天在看迟早等天收你

不过我会好好学习的加油

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2010-04-30T21:02:00.001+08:00

我回到了过去

心酸

我相信我自己可以度过加油

cR Time:5.10 am Whether:almost morning Mood:Sleepy

2010-04-22T05:02:00.002+08:00

I successfully completed my diploma course within this 2 years . YEAH !
everything was gone in what I expected.
actually , time passed so fast .

I will be going to my degree course soon.
God bless me much , Guan ying niang niang bao you many also . LOL
There are alot of friends going to work or continue their degree in other universities .Wish them have a good future whatever work or further study !

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2010-04-14T22:33:00.002+08:00

I was pursuing perfect for all the times

but one day I found that the most imperfect part was my own self

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2010-04-10T04:29:00.006+08:00

少了一个人的陪伴

永远都是寂寞伴随

❤ 就是有你而幸福

My Chemical Romance

2010-04-02T05:38:00.004+08:00

What i knew since from such a long time ago.

I only can give you those disappointment, sadness, and whatever related to bad thing.

These are so hurt from time to time.

I never been the one who you expected to be and yet always is the opposite side from what you expected.

I am bad enough .

Bad romance is what i only can give you .

There is faker's life.

I would not say sorry again to you.

It is because that I am the one who you disappointed on me.

Life is always have to go through.

I hope this time you have a smoothly life without me anymore.......

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2010-04-01T02:44:00.002+08:00

i am the faker always.

what does it mean by faker ?

whatever do anything also cant be trusted by anyone ?

yes, that is the life of faker.

i quite agree what the word you used to describe me.

a true heart will do the thing which wish to achieve .

but my heart always follow the opposite side.

sometimes, lie is quite useful to cover some minor problem .

but when you always use it for covering the problem u faced , then that is a big problem will come someday . Only at that time , you only know apology wont has any effect. Sorry cannot be the word which used to apologize for any mistake you done before. Do you really know the truth meaning of the word of sorry ? Do you think "sorry" can help you settle every problem you faced ? No, there is totally no. The one who with a sadness heart will totally disappointed on you from the day onward.

Girl is kind of animal which always carry with a soft heart. When you said few sentences of sweet word, it will be the most powerful tool to let her happy. But yet, do you really meet the girl who totally disappointed on a person ? Even the end of the world , even how hard that you make her happy , even u have used thousand of method to cheer her up , the smile you always see that wont find out from her face anymore. It is because you are just like a death person for her already.

Just a wish , merely just a wish . it can ruin your mood for whole day. same thing that happened at another person. she just wish to have a movie for the guy her love so much , she just wish to have some attention from the guy , she just wish to have a dinner with the guy , she just wish whatever thing from the guy, even once the eye contact with him , she can feels that a litter bit of happiness from the guy.

A simple mind of a girl who only hope that she can spend time with the guy.

If you cannot promise her , please do not give any hope to her. Do you know it will ruin her whole life ?

Guy, who always do not any encouragement to face the problem.

Sorry , i always cannot make it perfect for you.

Sorry , i always break my commitment to you.

Sorry, i really cannot give you anything .

Just the bad romance .

You never know the pain of others.

2010-03-30T03:13:00.002+08:00

i was just moody this noon.

because of something happened.

but i also need to thank someone who to be my audience .

Pain is a scar.

unless you died.

Combo

2010-03-09T02:28:00.002+08:00

last few days, i was having a nightmare.

totally totally totally afraid of it.

I hope that this day wont come for forever , can it be ?

yesterday, i was insomnia.

bad feeling for thinking my future journey.

i cannot predict how the journey will be going on

but i m sure that no matter how i want to fight for a chance to continue my degree.

recently, my life was full of emotions.

i got alot of thing to do yet.

everything seems like come together without reason.

A pair of ears needed. Be my audience.

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2010-03-06T00:01:00.003+08:00

Raining.

I hope that its can flush those emotion away.

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2010-02-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以
让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

quote of the day

2010-02-25T17:30:00.002+08:00

I hope the sky always smile with me

and

the sorrow always get away from me.

一个30岁男人和一个24岁女人的经典对白

2010-02-23T13:24:00.001+08:00

烛光晚餐。桌两边，坐了男人和女人。
　　“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡地说着。

　　“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。

　　“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我吗？”

　　男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。

　　24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。

　　白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。

　　真是不错的女孩啊，可惜。

　　“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。

　　“我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。

　　“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。否则，公司的晚宴，

怎么从来不见你带她来……”

　　女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。

　　静……

　　“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。

　　“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不同，你很特别。

　　“你知道三年前的我什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。

　　“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”

　　“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。

　　“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”

　　“那怎么……”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么让男人转变的。

　　“因为她？”

　　“嗯。”

　　“她那个人，好像总能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失，别太在乎眼前

的事，尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我

，偏偏最听她的话。按照她说的，接受现实，我知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”

　　男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。

　　“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具也少得可怜。知道吗？结婚一年后，我

才给她买了第一枚钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的

。”

　　“那阵子，因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”

　　男人沉醉于回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停地讲述着往事。

　　而女人，也丝毫没有打断的意思，静静地听着。

　　等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。

　　“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。

　　“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会，做对不起她的事。”

　　“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服了！”女人无奈地摇了摇头。

“不过我到了她的年纪，会更棒的。”

　　“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？”

　　“很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

　　“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”

　　男人会心地笑了笑，转身要走。

　　“她漂亮嘛？”

　　“……嗯，很美。”

　　男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛，发呆。

　　男人回到家，推开门，径直走进卧室，打开了台灯。

　　沿着床边，他坐了下来。

　　“老婆，已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀。干吗把我变得这么好，自己却先走了？我，我一个人，好孤单呀……”

　　男人哽咽地说着，终于泣不成声。

　　眼泪，一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔

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2010-02-21T15:28:00.004+08:00

友情也很脆弱的。

相遇不是用來生氣的

2010-02-11T03:55:00.001+08:00

前日往回家的公車上，

一對上班族男女吸引了我的目光，

而他們的一段對話，更讓人難忘。

每天搭乘公車上下班，來回通勤時間約莫近二小時，

有時人少，可坐在位置上欣賞窗外的風景；

人多時，也只能慢慢地擠回家，

但這時，身邊乘客的對話總會不時地傳到耳邊。

前日往回家的公車上，轉程靠站時，乘客頓時多了起來。

一對上班族男女恰巧在我身邊，吸引了我的目光。

可能因為人多，男的不時地將手臂圍住女的，

並輕聲的問「累不累？」

「待會想吃些什麼？」

只見女的不耐煩地回答

「我已經夠煩了，吃什麼都還不先決定，每次都要問我。」

男的一臉無辜的低下頭，而後說了令我印象深刻的話。

「讓妳決定是因為希望能夠陪妳吃妳喜歡的東西，

然後看到妳滿足的笑容，

把今天工作的不愉快暫時忘掉。

我的能力不足，

妳工作上所受的委屈我沒法幫妳，

我所能做的也只有這樣。」

女的聽了後，滿懷愧疚的說聲對不起。

男的這才似乎重燃信心般說：

「沒關係，只要你開心就好。」

而後親吻了女的頭髮。

下車前再回頭看看這對情侶，

男的依舊保護著心愛的人。

這樣的情景，

讓我覺得自己今天同樣在工作上有些許不愉快，

如果沒有聽到這一段對話，回家後的我，

可能也是一副全世界都對不起我的臭臉面對心愛的人，

只在乎自己的委屈，

卻忽視對方的感受，

不自覺地傷害最親密的人。

所以在踏進家門時，我問自己，

難道我要像公車上那位女孩一樣忍心

將自己的不滿委屈帶給身旁的人嗎？

不，我想我現在應該做的是...

別再把工作上的情緒發洩在心愛的人身上，

破壞了最親密的關係，

並且主動給自己一個微笑。

相遇，不是用來生氣的！說得真好！

當自己快抓不住情緒時，想想這句話，

應該會讓煩忙的生活，加些微笑的因子吧！

同樣地，在日常生活中，我們牽掛得太多，

我們太在意得失，所以我們的情緒起伏，

我們不快樂。在生氣之際，我們如能多想想︰

「我不是為了生氣而工作的。」

「我不是為了生氣而教書的。」

「我不是為了生氣而交朋友的。」

「我不是為了生氣而作夫妻的。」

「我不是為了生氣而生兒育女的。」

CNY Boil Boil Boil !!

2010-02-08T01:21:00.010+08:00

Finally !! Finally !!
This book is titled - 滚 ! BOIL
I find this book such a long time since i saw this book released . i think 1 month plus edy .
even i went to Popular ,Mph , Kinokuniya(SG-this book store is too big , i have no idea to find actually plus so many ppl inside)
lastly, I cannot find this book from these book stores. sad
so disappointed sia !!

but but but but this time MIRACLE has happened !
my friend told me that her friend stay at taiwan and he able to get it PLUS he willing to help me to buy it !
woohooooooooooooooo~~~
what a big news for me ~!

I cannot wait for it reach on my HAND already ~!
but the problem is that from taiwan post to Msia need how many days ? no idea ==.
I hope my BOIL will not be missing during its journey to Msia. hehe

honestly , the purpose of buying this book is wanna to get this bag bag . designed by ASHIN X NO2GOOD from Stay Real. This bag bag kinda nice what. i read from stay real's blog. they said the quality of the bag bag quite good sia. and i choose the red color 1 !

there are alot of ppl comment at the stay real blog . they said the red color quite difficult to find nia . but so lucky of me . i get the RED 1!

that all =)
nite guys and girls.

--

2010-01-30T03:00:00.003+08:00

this semester was busy like hell . deal with codes and notes . enuff for me to eat whole sem .
1st year only know play play play, 2nd year only know suffer suffer suffer . ==
i really dare not to think how would my life be during degree.
4 days non-stop exam
SAS office, you think that we are superman ? or ironman ?
gila betul edy. if my result come out with not my expected, then GG.com .

after exam , we were heading to Cameron. yeah~~~~
For me , i only know that Cameron is like a farm. ==
go there only can see vegetables and fruits.
but this time experienced totally different edy.
Cameron has changed alot edy.
anywhere , we were having fun over there.
especially the Mummy. i got another mummy edy. lol
and thank to Q2 gangs invite me go for this trip.

after come back JB, apa lah ni. damn hot whether. tak boleh tahan sudah.
everyday also boring. only drama and movie accompany me all the time. haha
but i need a big big rest after suffered exam.

that all, i sudah tak tahu mahu cakap apa hal lagi. @@

I need you to bring me for steping out this bad memory.

Satisfaction

2010-01-21T16:47:00.002+08:00

满足这两个字往往会害死你

有些人只求三餐温饱
有些人却要求三餐有山珍海味甚至燕窝代替白开水

有些人只求一家人开开心心生活在一起
有些人有了大房大车却说我还要有一妻三妾

那我们要求的满足到底是什么？
读书时期要有多多钱用？女朋友？有车？4 flat？

人，应该知足就好。

**

2010-01-07T15:24:00.003+08:00

很多人说
不在乎付出多少最重要是过程
但这句话不怎么灵验

付出 = 利益？
有利益的事大家都会抢着去做
不管是辛苦还是困难

付出是件很自私的的事
大家都会说但是不会做

狗屁
我就是做到你们做不到的事
在你们还没做到之前
会永远被我踩在脚下
除非你们做得比我好

不然最好静静

Dessert

2009-12-26T04:14:00.003+08:00

Dessert is just like life.

Depend on you how to define it.

Enjoy it slowly.

You will know that how sweet of you life.

--

2009-12-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

when i can only having a rest without any pressure.

i need a long break .

HOLIDAYS needed.

sigh.

cR Chin

--

2009-12-14T01:40:00.018+08:00

有些事情一旦习惯了就很难戒掉

好像有些人一旦动了真心爱上了一个人就很难忘记

不是每件事情都可以用时间来磨灭

不是不要忘记

而是忘记不了

感叹，垃圾生活

2009-12-12T04:14:00.003+08:00

颓废风越来越多人玩我想尝试
半夜通宵打机我时常做
思想越来越偏激化我无法否认的事实
半夜不睡觉在old town 聊八卦
夜深一时的冲动去the pavilion 闲逛
我的确很向往一时冲动而决定的事
年轻人血气方刚不用白不用 ? lol

我承认有时我情绪化
但是很感叹的是种种垃圾生活
是否我是垃圾生活的一份子？
是的，但是只局限于有时候
我还是想回到原来的我
我的思想一直跟着环境为改变

最近我真的被影响
而不是模仿他人
是真的被影响了

一个人的改变思想动作说话方式重重的改变
我的心里仿佛波浪般似的被动摇了

我无法想象神是如何看破红尘？
是否人在情绪化似都仿佛像看破红尘思维方式都会变得如此古怪
我无法解释人的心情起伏的无规律琴键上音符的律动

非常的不同的是思维方式进入了另一个层次
事情看得多了自然而然的你会被影响的

沉默被打破了进入了另一个层次

Mirror Style

2009-12-12T04:12:00.002+08:00

. noos gnimoc si dne eht
. dnoces 1 rof semit 001 ot pu eb nac taeb traeh ym
. tosl gnitteg ma i
? dnah a em evig annog ohw

think out of the box.

相处

2009-11-24T14:59:00.005+08:00

沉默让我渐渐的忘记如何以别人相处

我总是什么都不说

却在背后碎碎念

我知道每个人都喜欢好听的话

而不愿意听到任何的批评

我知道是我的要求太高

总是什么事都要求完美

我知道我自己的能力有限

一个人没办法完成十个人的工作

我知道我总有一天会倒下

我不要无穷的智慧

我只要无限的毅力

but i will never ever say lose !

Imagine Cup

2009-11-24T14:49:00.005+08:00

Imagine Cup

I failed to get into final.

but I never said that I "cant" make it.

for me, it is just a great experiences .

next time,i will BEAT you down !

Lazyness

2009-11-10T15:55:00.002+08:00

updated my blog again.
lately,my blog full of emotion.
xiao lin zai,this nickname really only suitable for my blog.
i am so fine after i signed off from my blog. haha=)
so i am not the emo kaki okay.

well,i just want to come here to talk coxk.
recently, my college life getting busy again.
omg,this kind of life i not really preferred to.
but 1 more semester , i am going to graduate and get my diploma.
sad T.T

this sem is really quite free compare with previous sem.
that mean i have more time for my to play and sleep ?
yeah, i have wasted alot of time in doing nothing and dreaming.

i like my blog description so much.
everybody follow me and shout "CR DIUZ !"

finding execuse ? please let me puiks again.

signed off**

intuition is going to wrong way.

2009-11-08T05:59:00.004+08:00

1 year, is it counted as long or short ?

actually,its like a wink.

actually, i still cannot forget everything.
even every moment was so clear in my memory as like happened yesterday.

i tell myself that its is time to stop it.
but i still choose the " jalan mati ".=(

pointless, meaningless.

yes,that is not point for me to recall back with the nostalgia.

i just want to ask : am i doing something wrong ?

eventually , i cannot find an answer .

because someone told me earlier.

but i was so stubborn on it.

is it starting a new relationship can forget what were i happening previously?

or its is just a way for me to cover my scar?

starting a new relationship is a responsibility.

i just want to tell u,

i have not to right to love someone else in this moment.

waiting is just a endless looping.

im so dissapointed

2009-10-31T01:13:00.003+08:00

because of u
how nice of me treat u
but what did u do
what have u done for me
im so sad
because of u are my brother
i never think that u will do such thing
but everything can be happened

i treat u as my brother
am i wrong ?

due to my temper, i would scold u without giving any faces even u are my brother
did u know why i didn't scold u ?
did u know why i wanted to calm down ?
did u know everything ?

today,u make me so dissapointed
tomolo,u don't blame me to be selfish

what is brother ? puiks!
i were pissed off !

Glory moment gone ?

2009-10-17T20:35:00.004+08:00

can i say that Mr.Glory Moment has gone ?
sound cool.glory moment=)
i failed to accomplish my promise.
X flat party also gone.
haiz.my friends , i have to say sorry to you all.

my friend told me that you have to satisfy with your result.
but,its really.
i was quite disappointed.
=(

i will try my best to achieve what i want to be.

From this pictures, try to view in whatever angle
you will see that are alot of As.
cool.

Warm

2009-10-13T15:28:00.003+08:00

我就是要这样

我好羡慕

充满着温暖的环境

无战争的

为什么我就是办不到吗？

嫉妒心

怕输

好胜

全部都是失败的原因

我才知道单纯的朋友是不可能存在的 =(

朋友

2009-09-22T03:30:00.003+08:00

朋友多未必是个好事其实真心交往的朋友

几个就够了

朋友们之间的交流

才是巨大的考验

MOS

2009-09-19T02:11:00.006+08:00

my friends always ask me that did u go to clubbing when you were studying at KL?
its is because many of my friends keep instilling me that KL is a clubbing heaven. wtf ?

actually,its is really nice. =)
after we were finishing a stressful final exam , we decided to go to have a fun !
MOS is a best choice.fuiyohhhhhhhhh~

1 word to describe the club = perfect.

please use your true heart to treat every of your friends that around you. *.*

im a faker

2009-09-13T05:34:00.004+08:00

after i viewed someone's blog
i only can found out 1 word =( sad

sometimes
i think that i m strong enuff to face everthing
i think that time has proven everything
i think that my action is real enuff
i think that the character of clown is suited me to be

sometimes
what i think that is for me to disguise myself
what i think that is for me to forget myself
what i think that is for me to make my life better

everything havent been moved and remain unchanged.
i failed and cannot resit forever.
and the possibility is 0.
im a faker =)

I m waiting for glory moment

2009-09-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

i m facing my final exam..
but i know that my glory moment has gone.
wtf..
bcos b4 the exam , i said that i wanted to open a 4 flat party..
gosh now,i just finished my 1st paper that was probability and statistics..
but duno why now i m damn no confidence to get the 1st A for this subject.
after i back home,i read through the math paper,
wtf , i made alot of mistakes in this paper.
now only can pray hard !!

guan yin ma ma bao you bao you
god bless me

Mr. Glory moment
where are u ?
i m waiting for u...
long long long long time already..

Somewhere is belong to me.

2009-08-12T18:05:00.000+08:00

I dealed with codes for a few days already..
I have found out that actually code is not familiar with me,
it seems like stranger?
gosh..

well,now i m missing.Somewhere is belong to me?
i wish that Mr.Code can find me as soon as possible.
i still have no more than 72 hours to finish my job
and put down everything to sleep for a few days..hah

Life is keep changing now,
we also need to keep improving ourselves.

Final exam is coming soon.
All of my friends,
Buck up.

Effort will prove everything

Attitude

2009-08-08T12:30:00.000+08:00

我没有学历没有背景

没有有钱的老爸老妈

唯一离成功比较接近

就是...態度！！
锲而不舍，坚持到底的態度精神。

from ：黑人-陈建州

you want to improve yourself or you want to be improved?

be or not to be,

that is the question.

Proven need a prover

2009-08-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

argument is not a easy matter to solve.
my life now,it is exist of alot of it.
it is a right time for me to learn to combat it ?
or try to explore my brain to prove that how does a person can behave while irritating?
even now i still have alot of "???" inside my mind.

time passing is damn fast like i m speeding in highway with 1 second per 180 kilometer.
oh gosh,
pls,doreamon give me an item for stopping the time ?
i need it right now @.@

yesterday,i was having a small chat with ah liam while doing revision for my statistics mid term.
this subject was going to make us to be crazy and i would like to shout out louder at balcony..
haha,it is a relaxing methods for college student nowadays?
i think that my all dearly friends would to have a same idea now ?
let's go,i know that ah liam will surely accompany me and do that crazy thing.LOL

we was discussing about having a girlfriend is good or bad ?
finally, the answer is 50/50. that is not argument.
every guy has their own need and girl also same.
but sometimes lonely is always accompany me..T.T

I need a prover who dare to stand infront of me and judge me whether i m doing right or wrong.

xoxo

沉默

2009-07-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

*2.15 am*

最近都比较忙
碰电脑的时间都少了很多
有也只是用电脑做功课
何尝忙碌的生活不是件好事了？
渐渐习惯了

刚刚和我的一个好朋友通完电话
得知了她的最近发生了一些事情

我顿时觉得人可以不要那么聪明吗?
我只能说弱肉强食的社会里，由不得我们选择
除了接受，你就是能退出
这是不变的定律

人，当得到一定的成就的时候
不管是学业还是工作
就会开始感到骄傲？
还是还会保持谦虚？

我不喜欢这种感觉
因为我尝试过
也被讽刺过
也被赞美过
当然我曾经也从失败中爬起来过

书上说：“沉默是一种最伟大的人格，因为选择沉默的同时，也选择了被误解与不辩驳”
往昔的种种，内心的种种，都让我无法讲出恶毒的话。哪怕围绕自己的都是虚假的一切和明晃晃的刀剑。
人间万物，自在来去。
我不是圣人，我有很多的不好。但在讲述别人那么多“不好”的时候，也请记得别人曾经对你的，哪怕一点点的好。

我选择沉默
不做任何的回应。

我的回忆，不是属于我的

2009-07-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

一年前的今天的心情是多么的澎湃
一年后的今天的心情是多么的平凡

20年后的今天又会是如何？
我的心是否解开了?

是时候放下了
留念只是个习惯性的动作
*生日快乐*

盲点

2009-07-21T18:44:00.000+08:00

我始终还是看到了人性的盲点
就是人类永远只看到对的一面
错的一面总是被遮盖
甚至自己也都掉入的圈套
并非每件事情都有是或非
但是总会有微不足道的一面

人与人之间的交际
盲点总是在无形中出现
我现在也摸不清了
更是看不透
难道声音越大就越对吗？
还是为了要阐明自己的立场是正确的？
我不明白，我真的不明白

我选择认错

是否道歉是件很没面子的事
其实认错的人并不可耻
可耻的是不知道自己错在哪里

但我相信
雨后天晴的可能性总是存在的